Mom had a long & busy day. Dad visited for lunch, and the major topic of conversation was not how the morning's therapy went, but how much Mom would like a cigarette. My mom is a creature of habit, and honestly I think quitting (against her will) smoking may be harder than the stroke recovery!
Tonight when we visited Mom she was kind of crabby. She's got some major "left side neglect," which is to say that she is very unaware of the stuff happening on her left side. Some of that she can work on, force herself to constantly be looking to her left as an act of habit, but I think her future dream job as crossing guard is off the table :) The other thing I noticed tonight is she wouldn't really look at me when we talked. I'm not sure what that's about. I think she's maybe feeling sad and upset, but she doesn't want to discuss it, of course. Her "go to" emotion is anger & frusration. That's hard b/c when she gets frustrated or annoyed (like when we tell her she CANNOT smoke or when we are trying to talk her into eating) it is easy to overlook that what she might be compensating for are much more vulnerable feelings. I haven't seen her cry once. I haven't heard her (not even once) say she's nervous, scared, fearful, or depressed. That's no good. Part of her therapy is emotional/mental, so maybe they can encourage her to tackle that. I did print out my blogs over the last week for her to read tonight. Maybe that will evoke some sort of emotion from her. She is so stinking stubborn!
So the prayer request for today is that she'd start coping emoionally & also that the cravings for cigarettes would subside.